BEYOND
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I want to get beyond. Beyond the "fine." Beyond the "ok." Beyond the facade that I'm alright. I want to be me and be honest and be open. But how do I do that when I always feel like I'm saying too much, already? Does the "how are you?" want a true response? Do they want to hear about my struggles and triumphs? About my workday or my messy sink? Do they want to truly know how I am? Or do they want "fine."
Am I the one not getting beyond? I hide behind my masks because I so often feel that a struggling heart isn't submitted and a messy sink isn't "Christian". I've been reading Grace for the Good Girl and chapter one just floored me. I could have written it (if I had any writing skill or desire to speak of) it cut so close to my heart.
I want a box. I want a list. I want an easy set of rules to live by so I know I'm doing this Christian-walk-thing right. But God doesn't give us that. He gives us grace and love and peace and so much more. So much beyond what we could imagine or ask or, sometimes for me, even believe. But I should believe it, because He's the only one who truly does go beyond...and loves me in spite of all my failings and shortcomings. He loves me for me and so much beyond what I could ever love.
STOP
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I'll be sharing more about Grace for the Good Girl. So stay tuned.
P.S. Can I just say I'm an edit-addict?? I so badly want to go back and change this and tweak that...sigh...trying to be perfect. When will I learn??
